Befriending, Deleteing, Adding

Sometimes you want to know who a person is. It is your nature. You are curious. What is his name or who is she?

However, soon or later after we meet that person, we tend to ignore him.

When we walk pass him on the street, we don’t even look in his eyes

You probably will delete her from your social networks.

Is it that you know all you want to know about him?

Or if you know any more about her you will not like her anymore?

Or you heard what he said about him and it makes you not want to be friends with her anymore?

Or you are just doing friend cleansing for yourself? No negative people in your life.

Or you got to close to him and it destroyed your relationship with her?

It is just life to let people come and go into your life.

However, it seems as if people are trying to hold on to others as often as they could… just in case.

If I graduate from fifth grade and move to another neighborhood, shouldn’t I meet new friends and deal with the lost?

Why should I be in college befriending or looking for friends from third grade on facebook?

What’s the point?

To see what they are doing with their lives??  or do I

have other intentions?

Why should you want to hang on to your childhood? When do you grow up and forget?

then you can say

Oh yes, I remember! I almost forgot about him…I wonder whatever happened to him!Swing

Married Couples

You ever saw a pair a scissors?

You notice how they open and close?

Imagine yourself in the middle.

Yeah, you.

You monkey in the middle.

You.

Now, what happens when you are in the middle?

You get cut. You get hurt. You end up broken.

You ever saw a married couple?

Don’t ever try to get in the middle.

You will be shred.

(analogy borrowed from my assistant pastor.)Married Couples

Prepared? Opportunity? Ready?

How ready am I?

How prepared am I?

do I?

Should I?

take another step?

Will this be an embarrassing step?

will my life change for the better- the worse?

it only gets bettttttttter!

what should I feel?

anxiety?

fast! Yeah.

Well, should I fast? or feast?

Is God telling me to fast?

Should I just eat and have faith??

What did Les Brown say?

It’s better to be prepared and have no opportunity at all then not be prepared and have an opportunity.

Well, is opportunity knocking??

Should I? Should I open?Preparing for show

Breath

I’m just sitting hereBreath

shaking my foot

nodding my head

bending my eyebrows

listening to Michael W. Smith

Breath

typing

blogging

breathing

breathing

breathing

its amazing

life from dust

it’s the truth

I am LOST without YOU

God

it’s the truth

I am DESPERATE for YOU

God

hum…

that violin sound

the strum

the bang of the piano

it is hitting the spot

pure worship

LOST.

WITHOUT.

YOU.

The Pretty Boy

So, here I am getting off the train and he’s standing on the other side of the turn thingy. You know that- what is it called again? Yeah, the turnstile thanks. So anyways, he’s standing there and makes eye contact with me. When I get up to the turnstile to go outside he stops me. And this brother is fine. Like I said, he’s one of those ‘pretty boy’ brothers who every girl likes. He gots it going for him and he knows it. Next thing I know, this brother turns to me and asks me to swipe him in cause his card is unlimited and it is not working and there is no one in the booth to fix his card. I was like, you got 2.50 or 3.00 dollars or SOMETHING to pay a sister back? He gonna say no. Well, you know you can’t get something for nothing I told him and he gonna stretch his arms out and make a face and say ‘oh, so it’s like that?’. I was like, Yep. And shrugged my shoulders and kept right on walking. Who he thought I was? An idiot? And it was obvious that he was using his looks to try to get a swipe! Oh my gosh.

Thanks Ladies!

Can we see the picture?

Sure.

It’s Hard Being Black and Beautiful

Brothers

Ladies, let me tell you what just happened in the ladies room!  So, you- know- who was telling her girl how Clark turned her down when she asked him out. I don’t even know why she stepped up to him in the first place as ugly as she is but anyways, when I came out of the stall, they were a little surprise to see me. I asked them what happened. You know, I just wanted to be informed.

So, she started telling me what happened and her girl, jumped in and added her two sense. And Ang said- Girl, I don’t even know what you are talking about, YOU was not even there!

And, Diane said Yeah, I was. So Ang asked her what did you see?

And Diane was like I saw you get played by him. Just as bold as you were to ask him he was bold enough to turn you down. And it was funny. Espcailly since Diane started being sarcastic.

No listen, It was real funny because Ang thought this guy was into her all year!

Then, Diane was like, I am glad he turned her down. Maybe he’ll ask me now.

And I was there trying to keep a straight face. How you gonna do that to your girl? Now, can you imagine Clark asking Diane out?

Warm Sun

Warm Sun

Make Up By Ms. Shawanda Scott

When I look out into the world,

I see God’s Beauty.

I am not always able to enjoy it.

When I see God’s beauty,

Sometimes It doesn’t seem to see me.

Hi, can you notice me?

I think you are beautiful.

I believe you are made in God’s image.

Wonderfully and beautiful made.

Made in secret as if to surprise the world.

It seems the world forget that it was made

that they were made

that he was made

that she was made

wonderfully and beautifully

it is sometimes so cool

worse so cold.

it makes the warm sun upon your face feels like ice

it makes you shiver in the spring

it sometimes makes it impossible for you to even remember

that

Yes, I

I

even me,

was made in God’s image.

Wonderful and beautiful

wonderfully and beautifully

made.

The Rodent

Rodents are not only in the hood. Why people act like you gotta live in the ‘hood’ to know what a freakin’ rodent is? I have friends who live in high places. Friends who live in suburbs who don’t have any rodents. It’s the way you keep your house.

Yeah, but it is more likely to be in the hood.

No, it doesn’t matter where a house is a rodent can make that its home.

I think it matters what neighborhood a house is in. If the neighborhood is just out right dirty like this one- then you are more likely to have rodents.

Now hold up- I live in this neighborhood and I don’t have any rodents. What are you trying to say anyway? I’ve been listening to everyone talk about how it matters what neighborhood you live in and all that *#%! And you, yeah you, looking at all the black and Latinos in the room saying we must have rodents in our home. Well, guess what, white people are dirty too.

so are blacks and Latinos, look at the white house.

Oh no he did not go there. He’s an ignorant son of a *&%$^. I am not even going to answer. You know what? The biggest rodent just left the white house. Look what he did to America. Made everything rodentia! He left the economy looking like the mouth of a dying mouse- gnawing and snapping and losing its life at the same time. He made the American people live and act like rodents. No one have money to pay for their mortgages being kicked out of their homes. Have to live with folks they are not even comfortable around and don’t tell me like you know because I – I know- everyone is scrambling trying to save and ending up with that one piece of cheese or bread crumb that is just a tease. Now, President Obama come in the White House and  have to be the pesticide anRodents in Classd the exterminator at the same time. Then she got personal, You have no idea what I or anyone else been through. You Roach!



No Shoes

So if you read the previous blog  titled, Bare Feet, you would know that my mission for today was to wear no shoes.

I did not go to work without shoes like I promised. My outfit was just calling for some heels! I couldn’t let my outfit down!

Plus, the children always look at what I have on and complement me. I just couldn’t let them down.

Besides, I felt good in my Nine West heels. Wouldn’t you?!

However, I did go all the way to Rite Aid without shoes!! Going was shaky. I actually was scared to leave the house without any shoes on. I kept thinking about the broken glass, dog doo-doo, dog piss, people spit and what ever else they do on the street (I saw a man peeing before- so disusing) and whatever else there is out there on those streets. And what if there are hidden  diseases out there in the cracks of the side walk?

I was hoping that someone would ask me why I didn’t have any shoes on. After all, my socks were bright red! Well, the heel and the toe. But no one asked! I don’t even think anyone noticed my feet.

I walked pass a group of guys smoking. I thought for sure someone was going to look at my feet. I was ready to talk about the cause. The ‘ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES’ event. To encourage them to buy TOMS the next time they shop for sneakers instead of  Nikes. Because if they buy TOMS a child in a poor country will receive a pair of shoes. But they didn’t even look at my feet. They just kept looking at my face. And I tried to give them signals. Like look at my feet really fast but they just kept smoking saying ‘Hey Babe!’.

I didn’t pay them any mine. I thought for sure someone was going to ask about my feet in Rite- Aid. But no one said anything. Just ‘Enjoy your Day’. Do you know I don’t have any shoes on?! I wanted to scream at the cashier!  Hey, look at my feet. No shoes. But I didn’t. I just wished her a great day and left. I thought for sure on the way home someone would ask.

I cross the street and looked at the person in the car. I know when you are driving you tend to look at what people are  wearing. Whatever, that old guy started smiling a creepy smile at me. It obviously had nothing to do with my feet.

When I was almost home, I saw two people looking at me. One was a mother with her daughter. But she just was liking my outfit. I know those faces. She smiled. Then there was this guy in a truck but his smile was to wide to ask about my feet.

People must think it’s funny that I didn’t have any shoes.

Or think it’s funny that others don’t have shoes.

No, I think, people know but don’t really care about others who do not have shoes because they have shoes and so doesNo Shoes everyone else around them. When you go for a time period without shoes you notice that everyone else is wearing shoes. You are also more in sync with the earth around you. For me, I was more in contact with the concrete jungle. I choose certain side walks to cross and kept reminding myself that I had to watch where I was going. I felt like my neighborhood was more like my home without any shoes on. At the same time I was paranoid.

Bare Feet

Today I plan to walk to work and back home without any shoes. It’s April 8th.

The one day in the year to let go for a change.

To let go of one’s pride.

To let go of my pride.

To let go of my shoe pride.

To raise awareness about children all over the world who grow up without the funds to buy shoes.

To talk about children in South America and Africa who do not have  shoe stores like Payless Shoe Source around the block.

Today I am NOT wearing shoes OR Sandals.

Today I just may wear my favorite cowboy boots… or carry them in my hand.

Raina's Shoes

Raina's Shoes